We watched this film entitled “October Baby” last Friday. It is a film about this girl named Hannah who has been experiencing extreme anxiety and sudden collapse and later on she found out that these are all effects of the surprising secret of her birth. She found out later on that she was adopted and that she is a product of a failed abortion attempt. After finding these out, she decided to look for her true self. She began a journey of searching for her biological mother. I was really moved by the movie. I actually started crying at some parts of the movie. Oh well, I am such a cry baby after all. For me, there are a lot of feelings and themes that stood out in this movie.
“I’m stuck in this place I hate. I’m stuck in this place I don’t wanna be. I feel so unaccepted, so useless and unwanted. I feel like I’ll never fit in. I will never be wanted.”
This line by Hannah caught my attention the most. It’s this striking line that made me feel so much grief and pain I can somehow and somewhat relate to at random points of my life. We all go through different depressing points in our life. And yes, depression or sadness is one of the themes that stood out in this movie for me. Who wouldn’t be depressed after knowing that her life was all a lie? That she was actually raised up in a world so different to her true self, a world far beyond the reality. Who wouldn’t be depressed after finding out that the people you call “mom” and “dad” weren’t really your biological parents? Who wouldn’t be depressed after knowing that you were a survivor of an abortion attempt? No one. If we all place ourselves into her shoes, we know that we will all be depressed and we will all hate the world after quite some time.
But in this time when her world was already drifting off, her hope still remained and she began a journey to search for her real mother. Well, sometimes we think that it is already the end but it’s not. Actually, after all these revelations, this is just the beginning. During this search, there is this one friend that never left her side and gave her hope in continuing this journey. When she found her mom, it all came back to her. That she is still unwanted and her mom, for the second time, rejected her. This part of the movie broke my heart into pieces.
And “My Favorite Part Award” goes to the part where in Hannah and the priest was talking about forgiveness and how important it is for all of us to forgive. I liked it when Hannah was praying alone and then this priest walks towards her direction and they just started a conversation. Hannah just started opening up about her problems. After that, Hannah has a choice to make, a choice that would start a huge change for all of them, a choice that we all know is really hard to do, which made forgiveness a strong theme in this movie. She chose to forgive the people who made a huge significance in her pain and depression, both in the past and in the present. After all, God continues to forgive all of us in spite of our endless sins, thus we gotta learn how to forgive others too— even those who caused us so much pain that it quite seemed unbearable. When Hannah realized that only through forgiveness we can truly be free, everything settled and fall back into places. And just like a typical story, everything went perfect in the end.
This taught us that in spite of all the obstacles, we should always remember that we will get through it all, one step at a time.