To the guy who I became really close with. The guy who befriended me and gained my trust. The guy that I opened up and shared stories regarding my life, my past, my family, and my current relationship- this is for you.
Thank you for listening to my dramas and to my endless rants. Thank you for being a shoulder to cry on. Thank you for being there for me and for standing with me when everything seems to be falling apart. Thank you for making sure that I have someone to talk to when I am left with no one. Thank you for showing me and for continuously reminding me of how I should be treated- that I am special and I am worth loving. For constantly saying that I am more valuable than any precious gem in the world. Thank you for being a brother to me. Thank you for the love.
Thank you and sorry.
Sorry if I couldn’t love you the way you do. Sorry if the only kind of love I could give is that of a friend or a sister, perhaps. Sorry if you think you had a slight chance when the truth is, no matter what happened and no matter how rough things may go between me and my current, I would always and always choose to be with him and to love him with all my heart. Sorry if I couldn’t return the effort that you continuously show me. I appreciate it, that’s one thing I am sure of. I just could not repay it. Believe me, I am deeply sorry for breaking your heart.
You are a great guy. You are amazing. And I know that somewhere out there, at the right time, you will be able to find the one for you. You will find someone who would be your perfect match, just as how I found the one for me. The one that would be able to give you all the love you deserve, because you deserve more. You need not to beg for love because you are worthy of more.
For now, I want you to move on, on your own. Free yourself from everything that could remind me of you. Allow yourself to fully forget that once in your life, you fell in love with me. That you fell in love with someone whose already in love with someone else. And by the time that you are perfectly fine, remember that I am here for you. I am here as the little bubbly girl- your friend and your sister.